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random thoughts…

Posted February 2nd, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

You know what I find fascinating sometimes?

Chickens.

Has anyone ever wondered how eggs come out of those tiny lil chickens? They’re about the size of their heads! And not only do they usually pop them out every day, we’re talking bout a few each time! Amazing..

I am highly strung these days. My patience is wearing thin and it does not take much to annoy the shit outta me. I am doing all that I can to occupy my mind so that it does not wander and visions of strangling certain people does not play in front of me as often. It is hard work.

So, I am trying to think about happy thoughts. Or, I suppose, in this case, random thoughts.

Now who thinks that the chicken came before the egg? Who here believes in evolution? I do. I like to know how things work. I find comfort in explanations. Of course, sometimes, logic doesn’t quite jump out at me when it’s late at night and I swore I saw a shadow move somewhere when I know nobody else is around.

Anyhow, I bet the egg came before the chicken. My theory is, the chicken used to be something else…and because of evolution, something gradually happened in the egg that made that animal evolve into poultry.

These days, there are heaps of shows on organic food and how it’s healthy for you and that chickens kept at organic farms lead a much happier life before being sent to the abattoir (or are chickens too small to be sent to abattoirs? Back home, they just keep them in coops til you are ready to choose the one you want. Then they take it out, break the neck and slit the throat within seconds. All you hear is a squawk and the chicken’s dead - probably never even saw it coming).

The older I become, the more conscious I am of death. The worst thing is, not just my own. I am concerned bout death of family (which is normal), beloved friends, acquaintances, and for some reason, especially animals. I am becoming increasingly bothered by animals killed not just in the wild for other animals’ survival (I never can bring myself to watch National Geographic) but by humans because of their greedy need of a tusk or genitalia, and worse of all, animals that die because their natural habitat has been endangered.

The more I watch these shows (which btw, are not documentaries but cooking shows), the more I seem inclined to buy organic meat. After going through the death of my first pet at the age of 13, each one that followed (not that I killed alot of them or anything - hamsters just have a very short life span!) were always comforted by the thought that they had a great life while it lasted. I seem to be living by that alot these days, especially when I am standing at the meat aisle deciding which pack is going into my chicken soup.

The only slight problem is the fact that organic meat tend to be about $2/kg more. But I think that’s a small price to pay for a chicken’s happiness for 3 weeks while it lived to be plumped up. I can almost see it running around in the open farm under the warm sun while playing around with its equally doomed friends.

Life’s a bitch sometimes.

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i am old..I really AM!

Posted January 29th, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

I take the public transport to and from work every day. These days, because the tennis open is on, it’s hard to get a seat on the trams. This is fine as long as I can find a spot to stand and not have to sniff in the next person’s BO or get strangled by someone else’ hair.

My problem isn’t so much standing. It’s sitting. As long as I can get a seat, I’m happy. However, I also like to give my seat up for elderly people, pregnant women, disabled people, etc. That’s where the problem comes in.

See, as an Asian, I tend to look younger than the locals. So when I see a woman whom I think could be younger than me or just slightly older, I just think, tough luck. But at the same time, I’m wondering if other people are looking at me thinking, “look at that bitch – just sitting there refusing to give her seat up for her elders”. Is it just my conscience that seems to hate me or does anyone else have the same issue?

People here age remarkably fast. Someone my age can look at least 10 years older than they actually are. So I hardly think it’s fair that I should give my seat up for someone who can’t even take care of their youthful physical appearance. That’s what you get for trying to tan the freaking daylights out of yourself when you were a teen. Now, you gotta live the consequences and if that means no seat given up for you, so be it.

Of course, there are times when I do want to give my seat up but the person is on the other end of the tram, which really leaves me no choice but to stay put. I have experienced times when I would give my seat up when some asshole decides he has more right to sit on it than the poor lil lady standing next to him. These days, I tend to tap the elderly person and offer my seat so that nobody steals it instead.

Anyway, for the times when I am unable to do so because of the above said distance, I would then give ‘you should be SO ASHAMED of yourself’ looks to the men and young people who fastidiously ignore the elderly person trying to cling on to the railings for dear life. The worst are those who sit there and smiles to them pitifully and looks away. At least, although selfish, the former knew that what they were doing was wrong!

I know that this is nothing more than cultural upbringing. No respect is taught at home anymore. Parents just leave their kids to decide what they think is best and to make decisions and grow up as individuals without any discipline or guidance. Ok, I just made that all up, but I bet this exists because all of them seem to take the same trams as me.

Let me tell you about the experience I had in Japan. I decided to take the bus one day because I wanted to see what it was like instead of the train. Japan is notoriously well known for its aging population and sure enough, I did see a lot of older generation while I was there (all up, I saw about 5 children during my almost 2 week stay there). So while on this bus, a couple of elderly people came on board.

Now, what I am about to reveal probably doesn’t happen anywhere else in the world. The most extraordinary thing happened each time they came on board. At least 3-4 people would spring up from their seats for them to sit. These old people actually had a choice on which seats to sit on. It was remarkable to watch. I felt like I was in a parallel universe (the Japanese probably consider this to be true anyway). This is one of the reasons why I would go back to Japan in a heartbeat. I mean, sure, they work you to death there, but at the same time, they have the lowest mortality rate, that is, if they don’t commit suicide first from the workload. Ok, maybe not anytime soon, but definitely when one is ready to retire and live out the remainder of your life. Plus, by then, you can always count on getting a seat on public transportation.

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oh be gone, you FAT!

Posted January 25th, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

The other day, I was standing in front of my mirror in my bikini and freaked out at the sight of my gut hanging out just above my bikini bottom. Alright, fine, it isn’t that bad, but there is definitely an area now where the sun won’t hit when I’m standing upright.

That led me to think back to the days when I was young. You know, when everything defied gravity so well and my metabolism  rate worked on every meal I ate like a crazy bitch on crack. As a matter of fact, I had to actually work hard to combat my metabolism rate. I chose full cream milk instead of low fat, pizzas and pastas instead of salads (although I do love my salads), huge bowls of noodles and to top it off,  medium or large servings for everything. Then I would try and finish up as much as I possibly could. It was actual hard work trying to gain enough fat in me to stop people from commenting I was skinny as a stick! Oh how I wish for those days now. Well, sorta anyway. Maybe not that skinny but halfway towards recovery…

Of course, now, after realising I don’t quite fit into half of my clothes anymore, I am trying to go down the healthy path once more. Again, I put the entire blame on my braces, by the way. I have also noticed that my body seems to be getting sluggish and I am more prone to headaches, allergies, sickness, etc. My skin and hair does not seem to have the glow and shine my friends used to be envious about. This - I blame them for jinxing me day and night.

So I have stopped myself from snacking unhealthily (not that I used to anyway) and have stocked up with loads of fruits, lean meat and vegetables. I am also trying to take more fibre as possible. I used to take quite a bit of supplements but have now decided they are a waste of money. One thing that I do swear by though, is fish oil and evening primrose oil. They do wonders for skin and hair from the inside out and also for crazy mood swings.

Unfortunately, because of my work commitments, I have quit my gym membership. On the upside, I am keeping my yoga classes (ok, I already prepaid them all so I have to go anyway which ends up being good incentive. The only thing I gotta do now is actually attend the classes). I have also picked up running around my neighborhood (read: round the tiny block around my flat..gotta start somewhere, no?). Now, I have always been a huge fan of running. The lame thing is, I suck at it. But I love running. So I have decided to train myself. Yes, my friends. That is my new year resolution - to be able to run 45 mins without stopping. Yes, it may sound familiar to some as it was my resolution a couple of years ago and probably was last year’s too but nobody can deny my persistence even if it may be wrongly placed!

Another point I would like to make is, eating in small quantities. I really do believe that your stomach shrinks after awhile. The difficulty however, is limiting food intake when you are used to eating in huge portions. In my case, when I get awfully busy, my mealtimes get thrown outta whack because I would push it til the brink of almost passing out before I realise I need food. Then, I stuff myself silly. I think it helps to have fruits lying around because then you can just snack on that while finding time to get proper meal. A tip I ought to really consider myself.

I also realise that as I will be travelling heaps this year, trying to stay healthy will be a challenge especially when great food is thrown at me day and night. It makes exercising almost impossible as the last thing I want to do is working out when I want to be out exploring. BUT I do have the hot sauna weather and walking tours to keep me slightly balanced there. Sweat it out, people….that’s all you gotta do.

Yea..maybe I ought to bring my gym and swimwear with me when I travel to at least guilt me to checking out the facilities when I travel…

Happy keeping healthy everyone!

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back to work

Posted January 21st, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

It sucks to be back to reality. Likewise to moving to a better place from a shithole, it takes alot of getting used to.

My body has rejected to the idea so much that it has acted out by causing the bloodstream to my brain to be squeezed to unbelievable limits, thus, the reason why I have been home the last two days nursing a very very bad headache/migraine. Ok. I don’t actually know what happens when one gets a headache/migraine but it sure feels worse than that.

Right now, all I can see myself doing is lying by the pool with endless supply of cash by my side to spend how I see fit…namely, great food, drinks, spas, massages and going out.

I can see a very big year ahead for me, career wise. Everything in my life seems to be revolving around work for now. The good news is, at least things are looking up at work so believe it or not, I am looking forward to what comes.

The problem however, is trying to get out of this rut I am in right now.

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photography

Posted January 15th, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

When I was back in Penang recently, I finally learnt how to use my beginners’ SLR camera. It was great finally learning how to fix the exposure and shutter speeds manually on the huge ass camera. However, although the pictures came out sharper than I would normally get on a normal point and shoot, I felt it was lacking the oomph that I see in professional pictures. I figured my camera just can’t beat the $10k ones which photographers use.

That is, until I discovered the world of post processing. I have been using photoshop and adobe lightroom to edit some of my pictures and it’s amazing what these programs can do to the simplest pictures. I feel like every picture I take now has huge potentials to look amazing! Even some of the pictures I took with my point and shoot camera came out looking great.

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this was taken using my point and shoot

Since then, I have worked on a few of my favourite shots and I must admit I am amazed at how well they have turned out. More pictures are available on flickr.  Please feel free to tell me what you think. I am always open to feedback!

When I started playing around with the programs, I got slightly carried away with the vibrance, brightness and contrast tools. My pictures ended up looking a little stronger than it should but because I was so amazed at how I could change it from such a bland picture to that, I just kept on doing the same thing to all my other pictures.

After a while, it finally hit me that the sky should never look purple so I started toning down the pictures abit. Photography is such a fun hobby to have and now that everything is digital, it can be quite affordable too (minus your initial investment of the camera and thereafter when you think you deserve a better high tech one ).

I am looking forward to going crazy with my photography during my travels this year :)

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bridesmaid’s speech that never was

Posted January 11th, 2010 by mayni | 1 Comment

I promised my best friend I’d write up a speech for her on her wedding day. Due to time constraints on that day, she got me off the hook. However, needless to say, I think she’s dying to know what my speech would be like.

So here goes. Please bear in mind that since speeches should be heard and not read, I’m gonna have to ask you to use your imagination here.

*after a very huge applause* ahem

“Thank you everyone.

Ladies and gentlemen. Today, I stand before you, beaming with pride and joy as the bride’s oldest friend, figuratively, mind you. There are, in fact, so much dirt that I have on her that if I were to tell them all now, this would end up an x rated speech. Therefore, I have decided to keep this short and sweet. Special requests for information will be available at the end of this speech, with special rates for the groom.

Growing up, Chin and I hung out pretty much every day playing girly stuff like dressing up and learning the art of make up, and not so girly activities like climbing up walls, jumping from high places, roller skating and lastly, plain weird shit like locking ourselves in her dad’s freezer and pretending we were in south pole. We spent so much time together that friends started to say, if you wanted to find one, just try finding the other.

I remember the day Chin and John met. It was 1998 and we were in college. We walked in the study room and I remember her turning to me going, “oh he’s cute!”. The next day, under what I can only assume were false pretenses, they ended up talking at the small convenience store on campus. I figured then that it was time we branched out and it was time to ’see other people’.

Ah. But little did I know, Chin was much harder to shake off than I had thought.

As a matter of fact, a year later, our friendship grew even tighter when both of us moved out of home for the first time and ended up living just 20 minutes away from each other in KL. We went through alot then, taxi rides to rescue each other, spending nights partying away til dawn, meeting random strangers, drugs, learning to smoke pot…no, i’m just kidding…or….AM I? Seriously, John..special rates just for ya. Aunty & uncle, sorry, no discount.

You see, the glory of Chin and John is, they have one of the healthiest relationships I have ever known. Despite finding herself a new best friend, Chin has always been there for me. Of course, selfishly, it helped that they were in a long distance relationship for an awfully long time. But, even now, I am sure most of you will agree that she will always find the time and way to be there for a friend or relative.

This marriage is a long awaited event. I’m sure Chin’s parents would agree with me. But it is also one which I am so happy to be part of. You guys are a great inspiration to many of us and I wish you many joyous years of anniversaries to come.

I love you guys!”

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relationships

Posted January 7th, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

As you should all know by now, I like talking about relationships and human behaviour. It is a subject that constantly baffles me and which I know I will never fully understand. Yes, when my mind draws a blank, I find that it is always a safe topic to write about because of its multi faceted levels of subjectiveness.

This week alone, I have been invited to a wedding, found out a friend got engaged, and another who have decided to move in with her boyfriend.

The particular topic I have in mind is, would you prefer
a)    an intense relationship where you are deeply in love with the other person to a point where you feel you are unable to live without them, constantly need to be with them 24/7 and is deliriously happy but at the same time, you also have the same intensity when it comes to arguments and fights? Or,
b)    would you rather be in a relationship where you love the other person but not to the point where you think your world will crash if he/she ever leaves you, but enough to see a future with them? At the same time, you will never feel the intensity of the relationship where everything is a high (but also with the lows). You are just riding the waves on a sunny lazy afternoon.

For me, I have gone through both stages, either in the same relationship or otherwise. I think, of course, that ‘b’ is the much healthier option. However, sometimes, I wonder if something is lacking when I don’t feel ‘a’. Am I just a sucker for punishment?

I know that people have different needs. I know girls who are constantly chasing a dream of the perfect guy, girls who would do anything to be with their loser, cheating boyfriends, girls who are still independent from their relationship and girls who can never seem to be able to embrace singlehood.

I suppose the younger my friends, the more I see the ‘a’ in their relationships. The older they are and the more ready to settle, the b relationship seems more obvious. Then again, there are also a few who are trying to tame the ‘a’ relationship in their marriage.

Whenever I feel the lack of intensity in a ‘b’ relationship, subconsciously, I seem to have a knack for stirring things up. After the drama subsides, on hindsight, I would then realise that I did that as a way of gaining some sort of assurance that things were still going good and we both weren’t taking things for granted.

Is that twisted or what? Like I said, sucker for punishment - or perhaps just what any other girl would do (crossing fingers).

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2010

Posted January 5th, 2010 by mayni | No Comments

wtf? it’s 2010 already??

I was recently in my hometown of Penang for my holidays and to attend a best friend’s wedding. The wedding was great fun and the food was amazing. However, the one thing that gets to me most is always the weather…and the mosquitoes…and to a certain extent, the people. Ok, three things then.

Everytime I am back, without fail, I end up with a slight culture shock. Why do Malaysians think this way? Why do they do that? Why would they spend so much money on something so trivial when they could be spending it on better education and safety of its citizens?

I am first to admit that I am ignorant when it comes to politics and economics. But surely, if I can see that the system is not working, it should be obvious to everyone else? Is it naïve to believe that politicians should be working for the people they represent and not for their own personal agenda?

I feel for my relatives who are stressing out on which school to send their kids because the backward education system seems to be retarding the future of their children. At the end of the day, it seems that if you can afford it, the best method is to send your kid to an international school that provides actual education. But, let’s face it, how many people are able to afford $10 000 a year on tuition fees? For 5 years? And then college and university after that?

Talking to my friends doesn’t make things any better either. Most are struggling to find ways to get out at every opportunity they can find. The corruption and unjust racial system seems to set them back each step they take in their career path. Regardless of how talented or deserving they may be, every reward seems to be unfairly judged. Even while at school, I had already felt the discrimination, let alone as an adult.

Progress seems undeniable at the surface, however. I believe that the country has successfully put itself on the map. Hell, if even “How I met your Mother” made a reference to it, I think the country’s publicity team has won.

The one thing which I find highly amusing which seems set to stay in the minds of the locals is how they simply adore Westerners. Probably stemmed from colonial times, this has not changed after more than 50 years of independence. I bet our first Prime Minister is turning in his grave!

My best example is, a couple of years ago, while travelling on MAS (our local airline), the air stewardess was going down the rows serving lunch. At the front and back of me were Westerners. Here’s how it went:

Stewardess: Hi sir, would you like the fish or chicken today?
Front person: Fish, please.
Stewardess: Certainly.
*moves down the aisle to me

Stewardess: Hi miss, would you like the fish or chicken today?
Me: Fish, please.
Stewardess: Oh, sorry, we have run out of fish.
Me: Oh, ok then. Chicken’s fine.
*moves down the aisle from me

Stewardess: Hi miss, would you like the fish or chicken today?
Back person: Fish, please.
Stewardess: Certainly.
Me: W…T…F?

See the problem there?

At the end of every trip I make back home, I come back feeling blessed at the opportunity I had in moving to a better country. It’s not perfect and, sure, racism still lurk about in shallow waters at times, but at least my kids will have a better education which will hopefully allow them to choose where they want to live eventually.

I’m so gonna hold that against my kids next time when they drive me up the wall.

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farewell, 2009

Posted December 30th, 2009 by mayni | 1 Comment

2009 has turned out to be more eventful than I had ever imagined. A few years ago, for some reason, I just kept having this feeling that 2008 was the year that was going to turn my life around. In a way, that had turned out to be quite true. My career and love life took a turn, one for the better, and the other for the worse. 2009 has been a year of paddling like crazy underwater while trying to look as smooth as a swan above it.

I have not travelled so much as I have in 2009. In this year alone, I have been to:
1.    KL
2.    Singapore
3.    Manila
4.    Ho Chi Minh
5.    Bangkok
6.    Kobe
7.    Tokyo
8.    Canberra
9.    Seoul x 2
10.    Sydney

And now, I’m about to head back to Penang for a best friend’s wedding. I am tired.
I have no qualms in admitting that I have the dream job that many people can only hope to get. I get paid to travel around the world and all I have to do is keep people happy and informed. In most cities, I coordinate everything from home and when I arrive, I expect it all to fall into place (of course, sometimes, it doesn’t). All the years of slaving away and learning everything from scratch is starting to pay off as I see myself gaining more experience and becoming wiser.

My travels have taught me independence, patience and self security. Travelling solo made me realise that even if I never find that someone to share my life with, I know I can still be happy. My dependency on another person seems less important now as I learn to appreciate the person I am.

It has been one long and winding road and I look forward to what the new future brings.

Happy new year y’all. I hope you have a good one.

;)

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homemade project update

Posted December 20th, 2009 by mayni | No Comments

I finally managed to find some free time to get my ingredients the other day. The shop carried most of the items I wanted except for Aloe Vera gel (so I ended up just cutting the leaves off my plant for it).

(The lady who worked there was hopeless though, which ended up with me going back 4 times to finally get exactly what it was that I needed. She kept ignoring me and when she did finally focus her attention, she was just plain rude and couldn’t answer any of my questions. I don’t know why shops hire people like these)

I had to work around the volume of the recipe because I did not have enough aloe vera. I do not have a digital scale either so unfortunately, the measurements aren’t exactly the most accurate.

I first cut up my aloe vera leaves to try and get the gel into a cup. Then I added some evening primrose oil into the mixture (I will add vitamin E in the future as it supposedly acts as a preservative. late note: I just found out that it does not act as a preservative but as an antioxidant). Aloe Vera is shite to work with as it is so slimy. I didn’t have much either so I had to be careful not to waste any. The effort needed to get this done makes me think it may be worthwhile just to buy it, if it didn’t cost so much!

After I got as much of the gel out as I possibly could, I realised that it had too much texture in it for a smooth lotion. Instead of microwaving it, I thought a better idea would be to blend it to as fine a consistency as possible.

Then, I melted the shea butter, coconut oil and beeswax in a double boiler. I then turned off the fire, and slowly added the almond oil by stirring it in.

I then transferred my aloe gel mix into a pyrex glass. I had my hand mixer ready and slowly poured the shea butter mixture into the aloe mix while mixing it.

I realised, however, that I should have waited for the whole mixture to cool down before I added my fragrance oil. But well, we’re talking about small volumes here so I don’t think that made too much of a difference. I will need to keep that in mind for the future though.

I also realised that I should have taken pictures so you can see each stage better but honestly, after the aloe vera effort, the last thing I wanted was to touch my iphone or camera.

But anyway, here is the end product :)

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The consistency is a bit more watery than I would have liked but I read that it will thicken as it gets cooler.

I tried some on my skin before putting them in the jars and initially, it felt abit greasy but after rubbing it in, my skin felt pretty smooth and soft. I’m testing the product on myself first as I have quite a sensitive skin. Once I know for sure that there are no allergic reactions, I can then start sharing it with friends and family :)

ps. After the cream had time to cool down, I applied some on my skin but realised there were lil lumps in the mixture. I then melted it down again and started whipping (mixing at very high speed) it instead. After a few minutes, the consistency was much better and I ended up with this (in natural light):

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and this is what it looks like close up (under warm lighting):

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It is much smoother and easier to apply. I will have a go for a couple more days to get a better idea whether to stick with the ingredients or change it abit. I do find that it is abit greasy when applied and takes a while to absorb so I may need to work on that. I may add in abit more shea butter as well next time. I think for this recipe, I only used about 10% shea butter. I may increase that abit, and lessen my almond oil.

Right now, I can smell the tea rose on my skin and it smells pretty good ;)

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